You know, if people knew I was writing this, they'd probably discourage me...but I'm so proud of Adam. I am so proud to be a fan of someone so unique, special and genuine. Lets get real for a second and let me tell you my views, for a start. I've prayed to God to change how I feel many times if He so pleases, but I can tell you He hasn't...He's only made me stronger in my beliefs and I recognize that I am either very strong or very foolish for stating them on here. I'm post-orientation. That…

This is anxiety I have...and it's to do with an incident to do with balloons in a restaurant. I think that's where it's stemmed from. Determined to conquer this. Been listening 'No Boundaries'...

It really didn't help that I panicked earlier. Sorry guys.

Positive, logical thinking from now on.

LucyXX

Jenn came back.

Apparently she's not haunting me on a level to do with my faith or my personal life. Apparently it's to do with my fanship. This is getting difficult. If you follow me on twitter and you'll see what I mean.

Please don't let my depression be coming back. Please let how I feel about Adam come back. Please let his message stay in my heart for life. I feel so lost and I'm praying to God that it comes back and that Jenn goes away for…

Hey guys :)

So...I was speaking to someone...and I feel that I've had an epithanic moment of Christian delight. God DID give me Adam as my miracle two years ago...I know this because I've learned more from Adam in this world about being a good, kind, loving, confident person with high self esteem and a genuine, unconditional love for him. Now, I feel God wants me to give something back. All the people from the Westboro Baptist Church etc. who profess Christianity are…