I dunno why...but I've felt Jenn come back a little for the first time in ages...(Jenn is my depressed feelings I used to get...named after someone from my past...) and I dunno why! I've been crying and my soul is hurting. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?! IT'S DISTRESSING!

GO AWAY, JENN! LEAVE ME ALONE!

WHY HAS IT BEEN FOUR DAYS IN A ROW?! USUALLY I'M OVER IT WITHIN A DAY! WHY AM I WORRYING?! WHY AM I FEELING NEGATIVE WHEN THERE'S NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT AND EVERYTHING TO BE HAPPY ABOUT! I'M SO FRIGHTENED THAT IT'S COMING BACK! 

Well...it's a collection of a lot of stuff I guess...

-Having to flee from a restaurant because of balloons...

-My friend not talking to me for no reason

-My other friend going on at me about 'righteous judgement' and how, as a Christian, I am meant to frown on certain things...

-The westboro Baptist Church being RTed with all their spew...

-The feeling that I'm not being loyal to God because I love Adam

Two panic attacks, that sinking feeling of a bottomless pit...yeah...not so good.

This does not leave my blog.

I hope I'm not falling off the wagon. 

WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?!

Sorry...needed to vent. Hope this won't happen again.